I know! [Laughs!] But I saved you all the best juicy parts! And the time Nautilus showed off 8 flashing the whole comm bein' naked. And 9 working shirtless on a boat. [THAT IS HOW MUCH SHE LOVES YOU JACK. SHE WOULD DO THIS FOR NO ONE ELSE IN THE UNIVERSE. INCLUDING THE DOCTOR HIMSELF.]
Yeah? [Waggles eyebrows and tongue lolls about Steven, but she perks up then.] Oh! Four mentioned him! You should tell him about the bet. [Giggles.] He'd help you win.
[She pauses and eyes widen in shock at Jack's reaction. She'd never seen Jack that angry before. She didn't blame him in the least! But she was still surprised!]
Rex? [Quiet voice, and Rose gently took Jack's hand, locked her fingers through his.] Grumpy, old, thick eyebrows, Scottish. There'll be a line to punch him with 9 in first. I'll be the only one who wants to hear his side I think. She was a child here, there's these things called chaos storms, happen 'bout a month or so when things get too crazy, buildup of excess chaos, oh wait, reality storm? Well... This whole big alternate universe where we were all teachers, but she was a student. Apparently she was like that when the Doctor first met her. Still can't say what he was thinking, she thought she caused deaths of people around her just by thinking it. Not someone I'd think could handle it.
[Rose shook her head though and took his other hand and squeezed that too.] That's not it. I've had less troubles because of him! Not more. And-- [Bites her bottom lip.] He loves humans. [Quiet.] It's against the TimeLord laws. Did you know?
[Quiet frustrated growl and moves her fingers up to his eyes to look into them with her own.] Listen, never tell anyone not even the Doctor that I told you this, yeah? He doesn't even know I know. Well, Four does. Four I'd trust with everything. Even you.
He broke the TimeLord laws against non-interference. They forced him to regenerate, exiled him to Earth and that's how he met the Brigadier and Jo and Sarah Jane. That was his third incarnation. That's why, they're all protective of Scarfy, because he was the first one who got to be free again after that.
He's not supposed to save the planet as much as he does. He just hates certain things as much as I do, yeah? Tyranny, slavery, injustice, the weak being abused just for money and power or greed. The TimeLords could do more but they don't.
[Sucks in a deep breath and squeezes his hands tightly, letting the breath go.]
At the end of the Time war versus the daleks, the TimeLord leader, Rassilon, wanted to destroy all of existence, and just ascend the TimeLords into not even having a physical form, just consciousness. That was why the Doctor stopped them. And he lost all his peopel for it. I've been with him when he couldn't sleep and all the nightmares he's had. Nights cryin' about the kids destroyed in the war.
The Krillitanes tried to lure him into helping them with power, yeah? No more humans would have to suffer or die. But Sarah Jane stopped him. Said everything has its time, everything has to end.
I don't get it. I hate ends, I always will. Four's like that too, he and I, neither of us can grow up about it it seems. But the Doctor doesn't look down on anyone. He tore himself apart trying to help Ashildr here. The worst fight he -- Ten and I got into, I don't think Four's even forgiven him for yet. And it was because he felt so stupid and guilty over Ashildr, and she made a deal with him that if he took her traveling with him, without me mindya, she would try to stop being a backwards obnoxious recluse here.
Thing is... I don't know what 12 was thinking, but I do know he was right not to bring Ashildr with him. Ten started having a total mental breakdown in just a few months since she was here!
[Pushes her hair back with a hand.] Thing is, I told her, we don't just go along to get away from people. We go along to bring him back to people.
He's not lookin' down on us, Jack. He just gets scared. It wasn't just the TimeLords that tortured him, humans and others have too. 8? Acts like it's just another Tuesday for him! It breaks my heart.
[Deep breath and drops his hands to shield her eyes.]
There's more. I wouldn't do this but I have to.
The TimeLords used Lady Me as a trap, killed Clara, and Rassilon tortured the Doctor using what's known as a confession dial. 'm only tellin' ya because... That's why Lady Me is such an extra mess. Not just the immortality thing.
Don't get me wrong. I can't defend her. I try to protect her from the Doctor, not for her, not even for him, just because that's who I want to be as a person. But I told Four. If you went around collecting everyone I left in my past to try to I dunno... help them even? I'd be so offended I'd punch you, and I love you.
[Deep breath.] Thing is, 9 and 10 don't really get it. They still think that she's just from a different universe, because they have to think that. If they find out that the TimeLords can come back... there's nothing they wouldn't do for that. Except...
That's how much they care about humans, Jack. One human life they don't even like very much, versus the whole of Gallifrey.
I think... I've got as much blame with Ashildr as everyone else. Because maybe if I hadn't messed up, he wouldn't be so lonely and scared and I met another woman and she told me he was just so tired of losing people and not getting them back. And that's on me. I'm the one who can't let go, who can't stand endings, who couldn't stand to let you die, who keeps trying to tell him to keep fighting, never give up. That's... That's what I did Jack. With Bad Wolf, when I came back. I told him he wasn't allowed to quit. To try anything, do anythin', no matter how crazy. I'm the one who keeps tellin' him it's all right to be more human. And that that means taking chances instead of just standing by and letting things happen. That's the TimeLord way. Don't get involved. Don't experience things like love or pain or any of it. Just use people as weapons.
I taught him to do different. I insisted on it. Always will too.
So if you wanna get mad at him, you gotta get mad at me too, yeah?
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Yeah? [Waggles eyebrows and tongue lolls about Steven, but she perks up then.] Oh! Four mentioned him! You should tell him about the bet. [Giggles.] He'd help you win.
[She pauses and eyes widen in shock at Jack's reaction. She'd never seen Jack that angry before. She didn't blame him in the least! But she was still surprised!]
Rex? [Quiet voice, and Rose gently took Jack's hand, locked her fingers through his.] Grumpy, old, thick eyebrows, Scottish. There'll be a line to punch him with 9 in first. I'll be the only one who wants to hear his side I think. She was a child here, there's these things called chaos storms, happen 'bout a month or so when things get too crazy, buildup of excess chaos, oh wait, reality storm? Well... This whole big alternate universe where we were all teachers, but she was a student. Apparently she was like that when the Doctor first met her. Still can't say what he was thinking, she thought she caused deaths of people around her just by thinking it. Not someone I'd think could handle it.
[Rose shook her head though and took his other hand and squeezed that too.] That's not it. I've had less troubles because of him! Not more. And-- [Bites her bottom lip.] He loves humans. [Quiet.] It's against the TimeLord laws. Did you know?
[Quiet frustrated growl and moves her fingers up to his eyes to look into them with her own.] Listen, never tell anyone not even the Doctor that I told you this, yeah? He doesn't even know I know. Well, Four does. Four I'd trust with everything. Even you.
He broke the TimeLord laws against non-interference. They forced him to regenerate, exiled him to Earth and that's how he met the Brigadier and Jo and Sarah Jane. That was his third incarnation. That's why, they're all protective of Scarfy, because he was the first one who got to be free again after that.
He's not supposed to save the planet as much as he does. He just hates certain things as much as I do, yeah? Tyranny, slavery, injustice, the weak being abused just for money and power or greed. The TimeLords could do more but they don't.
[Sucks in a deep breath and squeezes his hands tightly, letting the breath go.]
At the end of the Time war versus the daleks, the TimeLord leader, Rassilon, wanted to destroy all of existence, and just ascend the TimeLords into not even having a physical form, just consciousness. That was why the Doctor stopped them. And he lost all his peopel for it. I've been with him when he couldn't sleep and all the nightmares he's had. Nights cryin' about the kids destroyed in the war.
The Krillitanes tried to lure him into helping them with power, yeah? No more humans would have to suffer or die. But Sarah Jane stopped him. Said everything has its time, everything has to end.
I don't get it. I hate ends, I always will. Four's like that too, he and I, neither of us can grow up about it it seems. But the Doctor doesn't look down on anyone. He tore himself apart trying to help Ashildr here. The worst fight he -- Ten and I got into, I don't think Four's even forgiven him for yet. And it was because he felt so stupid and guilty over Ashildr, and she made a deal with him that if he took her traveling with him, without me mindya, she would try to stop being a backwards obnoxious recluse here.
Thing is... I don't know what 12 was thinking, but I do know he was right not to bring Ashildr with him. Ten started having a total mental breakdown in just a few months since she was here!
[Pushes her hair back with a hand.] Thing is, I told her, we don't just go along to get away from people. We go along to bring him back to people.
He's not lookin' down on us, Jack. He just gets scared. It wasn't just the TimeLords that tortured him, humans and others have too. 8? Acts like it's just another Tuesday for him! It breaks my heart.
[Deep breath and drops his hands to shield her eyes.]
There's more. I wouldn't do this but I have to.
The TimeLords used Lady Me as a trap, killed Clara, and Rassilon tortured the Doctor using what's known as a confession dial. 'm only tellin' ya because... That's why Lady Me is such an extra mess. Not just the immortality thing.
Don't get me wrong. I can't defend her. I try to protect her from the Doctor, not for her, not even for him, just because that's who I want to be as a person. But I told Four. If you went around collecting everyone I left in my past to try to I dunno... help them even? I'd be so offended I'd punch you, and I love you.
[Deep breath.] Thing is, 9 and 10 don't really get it. They still think that she's just from a different universe, because they have to think that. If they find out that the TimeLords can come back... there's nothing they wouldn't do for that. Except...
That's how much they care about humans, Jack. One human life they don't even like very much, versus the whole of Gallifrey.
I think... I've got as much blame with Ashildr as everyone else. Because maybe if I hadn't messed up, he wouldn't be so lonely and scared and I met another woman and she told me he was just so tired of losing people and not getting them back. And that's on me. I'm the one who can't let go, who can't stand endings, who couldn't stand to let you die, who keeps trying to tell him to keep fighting, never give up. That's... That's what I did Jack. With Bad Wolf, when I came back. I told him he wasn't allowed to quit. To try anything, do anythin', no matter how crazy. I'm the one who keeps tellin' him it's all right to be more human. And that that means taking chances instead of just standing by and letting things happen. That's the TimeLord way. Don't get involved. Don't experience things like love or pain or any of it. Just use people as weapons.
I taught him to do different. I insisted on it. Always will too.
So if you wanna get mad at him, you gotta get mad at me too, yeah?