[Jack was torn but he quietly listens to Rose with the weight her words deserve and he makes a choice to lay it all on the table and hope she understands that he understands Lady Me's anger. He's sure they've met outside this place and there may be other reasons she hates him. He looked at her and saw what he could have been become if he hadn't forced himself to keep up the facade of charm, if he hadn't had Gwen to focus on and Ianto to love. Now he'd lost them and Rex was alone back home with no idea what Jack had done. Hell Jack didn't know what he'd done, but he was no better than the Doctor right now.]

I could never be mad at you Rose....getting mad at you would mean getting mad at myself. I'm no better then the Doctor.

[He takes a deep, deep breath in and fights the urge to change the subject but he knows he can't.]

I've lost everything back home Rose. Torchwood is gone...destroyed the government blew up the Hub after Davros to cover up something I helped them do in 1965. They put a bomb in my stomach and blew me up from inside of the Hub....I learned I could regrow from nothing more than two limbs. They then tried to bury me alive but I'd been through that before so it wasn't a bad thing.

But then they forced me to choose between my family and saving the world. They were going to sell ten percent of the children of the world to alien drug users.....they killed my lover and I......killed my own grandson to stop them.

[He chokes back his emotions as he hears his daughters screams in his head and Ianto dying in his arms as Jack himself choked to death on poison gas.]

And I ran away...I didn't plan on ever coming back.....but another one of my stupid mistakes came back bite me and people stopped dying....they became me and I became mortal again.....the world turned dark and for a second...just a split second I thought I can die and someone else can fix this...I'm tried of saving the world.