[And takes out the blue TARDIS diamond ring Ten made for her. Carefully unhooks it from her TARDIS keychain and puts it on her hand.]
[In some ways, it's like an older Rose. And she frankly considered it a wonder now that the younger Doctors hadn't taken turns to punching Ten sometimes.]
I didn't say don't talk to him, or don't touch.
I said I'm not sharing him. Not even all of him, just Nine. You can have whatever relationship the two of you want together, that's nothin' to do with me.
[She could fly the TARDIS properly.]
[???]
[Rose feels a little betrayed, truth told. And the idea that she has adventures without the Doctor unnerves her to no end.]
[She winds up biting a nail in thought.] Yeah, right. I suggest tellin' him that bit about adventurin' without him. He'll love it.
[About as much as Rose loved him adventuring without her.]
[Which was to say....]
[No, she hated it.]
And this has nothing to do with my insecurities over him. [SIGHS and pushes her hair back with a hand.] Do you think you being dangerous is supposed to scare me? I've met the dalek emperor, and even Sarah Jane said I'm more than a match for him! [Annoyed growl.]
I said, I won't share 9. Try pulling the husband thing with him. See how far you get. [SHRUGS.]
[She wonders if it IS insecurity. Well, probably? She's NEVER had clear footing with him, where they stand. And even when he tried over and over to give that to her, did she believe him?]
[She did here. And now. In Nautilus. She trusted him.]
[Rose holds up a hand. Serious-faced.] Right, don't, and just take it as a warning from a child, all right? I'm sure you treasure every moment you spend with the Doctor, just as much as I do -- [Why adventure without him then?! He wasn't just the TARDIS. He was dumb and likely to fall apart without help! He was reckless to the point of suicide. He needed, always needed, a hand to hold. What was the point of a wife if not that?]
[Rose will never understand him.] 'm just -- not in a good place with him all split up. Don't get me wrong, I love gettin' to see his different lives, I do. And I love meetin' all of him, and it's like havin' my childhood best friend around I never knew was missin' before, yeah?
[How to explain it?]
[Well she couldn't. She couldn't even put it into words. That 9 was like her wolf mate. That 10 she had no choice but to trust, and did, and knew he was depressed about his future and losing Rose, and whatever else, and that she was glad anyone could hold him together.]
[But 9 was....]
[Maybe it was insecurity.]
[With Ten, she knew he fell in love with Renneitte in just one day, knew he was going to need to move on in the future and...]
Seriously, talk to Eight, all right? The fancy gothic one.
I can't explain it about 9, but I mean it. I don't share. Do your worst, because it won't make it happen.
[9 died for her, turned into 10 because of that. Maybe part of Rose was worried what would happen if it didn't. But then... she'd already told 8, she would give it all up, let 8 undo even 9's existence if it meant the Doctor would be happier.]
[Happier right? So she should share 9.]
[She 1000000% can't though.]
[Every time she's tried ended in disaster! Maybe she was as dependent on him as Fluffy was for staying stable on Rose?? Or worse???]
[Why.]
[WHY IS SHE LIKE THIS?]
[She's going to have to talk to Adrien and Dirk and maybe Four.]
[But she's not walking it back either.]
You can have saved him billions of times and it still doesn't change all the times I have either, yeah? And I am sorry, that he isn't gonna remember you here. That he's all too young, because I know I acted the idiot around 8, and I still do. [Shakes her head.] But it's not about him, it's about me.
I haven't married him, because I don't want to force his hands. His younger or older selves.
I can't share 9 anymore than I can just... share my Mum. Or Dad. Just too much. Let it grow on me and we'll see, I always wanted a kid sibling to boss around.
[Shakes her head. It's funny. THIS is the kind of speech she expected Sarah Jane to give her back then. And the fact that she was doing it to someone else now when Sarah Jane had been nothing but supprotive and blessedly helpful does NOT make her proud.]
[Like a part of her watching herself out of the corner of her eye wanting to smack herself.]
[And yet she couldn't stop either.]
You can marry a future version of him, and I'm happy for you, I really am. Both of you, even. [And... it's true, albeit somewhat to Rose's admitted surprise...]
But I'm still not sharing 9. The only reason I could with Jack, is because I already did.
Do whatever you want, I'm not gonna stop ya. I'm just not gonna share him. [Said for the 80th time or so...]
Re: B.
[And takes out the blue TARDIS diamond ring Ten made for her. Carefully unhooks it from her TARDIS keychain and puts it on her hand.]
[In some ways, it's like an older Rose. And she frankly considered it a wonder now that the younger Doctors hadn't taken turns to punching Ten sometimes.]
I didn't say don't talk to him, or don't touch.
I said I'm not sharing him. Not even all of him, just Nine. You can have whatever relationship the two of you want together, that's nothin' to do with me.
[She could fly the TARDIS properly.]
[???]
[Rose feels a little betrayed, truth told. And the idea that she has adventures without the Doctor unnerves her to no end.]
[She winds up biting a nail in thought.] Yeah, right. I suggest tellin' him that bit about adventurin' without him. He'll love it.
[About as much as Rose loved him adventuring without her.]
[Which was to say....]
[No, she hated it.]
And this has nothing to do with my insecurities over him. [SIGHS and pushes her hair back with a hand.] Do you think you being dangerous is supposed to scare me? I've met the dalek emperor, and even Sarah Jane said I'm more than a match for him! [Annoyed growl.]
I said, I won't share 9. Try pulling the husband thing with him. See how far you get. [SHRUGS.]
[She wonders if it IS insecurity. Well, probably? She's NEVER had clear footing with him, where they stand. And even when he tried over and over to give that to her, did she believe him?]
[She did here. And now. In Nautilus. She trusted him.]
[Rose holds up a hand. Serious-faced.] Right, don't, and just take it as a warning from a child, all right? I'm sure you treasure every moment you spend with the Doctor, just as much as I do -- [Why adventure without him then?! He wasn't just the TARDIS. He was dumb and likely to fall apart without help! He was reckless to the point of suicide. He needed, always needed, a hand to hold. What was the point of a wife if not that?]
[Rose will never understand him.] 'm just -- not in a good place with him all split up. Don't get me wrong, I love gettin' to see his different lives, I do. And I love meetin' all of him, and it's like havin' my childhood best friend around I never knew was missin' before, yeah?
[How to explain it?]
[Well she couldn't. She couldn't even put it into words. That 9 was like her wolf mate. That 10 she had no choice but to trust, and did, and knew he was depressed about his future and losing Rose, and whatever else, and that she was glad anyone could hold him together.]
[But 9 was....]
[Maybe it was insecurity.]
[With Ten, she knew he fell in love with Renneitte in just one day, knew he was going to need to move on in the future and...]
Seriously, talk to Eight, all right? The fancy gothic one.
I can't explain it about 9, but I mean it. I don't share. Do your worst, because it won't make it happen.
[9 died for her, turned into 10 because of that. Maybe part of Rose was worried what would happen if it didn't. But then... she'd already told 8, she would give it all up, let 8 undo even 9's existence if it meant the Doctor would be happier.]
[Happier right? So she should share 9.]
[She 1000000% can't though.]
[Every time she's tried ended in disaster! Maybe she was as dependent on him as Fluffy was for staying stable on Rose?? Or worse???]
[Why.]
[WHY IS SHE LIKE THIS?]
[She's going to have to talk to Adrien and Dirk and maybe Four.]
[But she's not walking it back either.]
You can have saved him billions of times and it still doesn't change all the times I have either, yeah? And I am sorry, that he isn't gonna remember you here. That he's all too young, because I know I acted the idiot around 8, and I still do. [Shakes her head.] But it's not about him, it's about me.
I haven't married him, because I don't want to force his hands. His younger or older selves.
I can't share 9 anymore than I can just... share my Mum. Or Dad. Just too much. Let it grow on me and we'll see, I always wanted a kid sibling to boss around.
[Shakes her head. It's funny. THIS is the kind of speech she expected Sarah Jane to give her back then. And the fact that she was doing it to someone else now when Sarah Jane had been nothing but supprotive and blessedly helpful does NOT make her proud.]
[Like a part of her watching herself out of the corner of her eye wanting to smack herself.]
[And yet she couldn't stop either.]
You can marry a future version of him, and I'm happy for you, I really am. Both of you, even. [And... it's true, albeit somewhat to Rose's admitted surprise...]
But I'm still not sharing 9. The only reason I could with Jack, is because I already did.
Do whatever you want, I'm not gonna stop ya. I'm just not gonna share him. [Said for the 80th time or so...]