[At the announcement that the Doctor will make armies run at his name, and become the very evil he hates --]
[Rose opens her mouth, about to shout, about to interrupt!]
[This was EXACTLY what she told Ashildr she was scared of. What she feared and hated! And it seizes her throat right up, so no words come out.]
[Her eyes are hard.]
[Extremely hard.]
[And it's a good note of Rose's own levels of composure that she doesn't do anything, doesn't react much. In fact, her voice is almost emotionless, just quiet and very sad.]
Stay away from him.
I was wrong. I don't just mean 9 anymore. I mean you're toxic. I thought Lady Me was, but I was definitely wrong about that. Compared to you? She's just a pill. Bitter, side effects, but at least with some power for good.
You? [Shakes her head.] I'm sure you'll hurt him if you think it's for his own good. And I can't ever trust that. [And Rose... can't. It's the line she will never cross. She agonized over taking his memories from him knowing it was to make him happier. River was like a surgeon. Ready to cut away at him like he was some diamond in the rough. Rose liked the rough, took him as he was. She did not like River.]
[The evil the Doctor hated the most. An arrogant TimeLord would rather everything was static than allow for free will and freedom and making mistakes and getting messy, and learning and evolving. A TimeLord who would decide life and death because he was so sure of his own power to be right.]
[Rose was terrified of that. Terrified. But she wasn't willing to let this woman who thought she knew what was best for him decide that. If anything, it was too close to her worst fears. Hell no. Did River even understand the joy of adventures? Or WHY it was important to hold his hand? Had she she ever made all of him laugh? Any of him? Reminded him how to dance, how to laugh?]
[Rose all but has a panic attack, thinking about how River might react if she saw Ten the way he got without Rose to keep him steady. Would River Song be willing to kill Ten to make him regenerate just so he'd be the way she thought he should? Or how much pain until he stopped what she felt he must?!]
I know the days he stopped calling himself the Doctor, and the days 8 has yet to come. Just stay away from all of him. If you really love him, if you really want what's good for him, don't go near him. He's actually happy here, do you understand? Let him come to you, make him want to come to you for all I care, but don't reach out to him, don't do anything that hurts him. Or I swear to you, you'll wish you had never met me. I won't even let you beg for mercy, I'm not even that nice. Just stay away from him for his own good.
[For the first time, Rose REALLY TRULY WISHES that 10 is right, that Lady Me is ABSOLUTELY from an alternate universe. That the Doctor would never do this to himself, even though ROSE KNOWS OTHERWISE. What was the point? What was the point of saving him if he's going to let himself always be tortured like this? Did she even really save him at all?]
[Little moments. It's about the joy in the meanwhile, before everything. And between it.]
If you really want to protect him, do that. And start with protecting him from yourself.
Oh.
And just so you know. [She taps the side of her head with two fingers.] I've already sent all of this to him. All of him. So you needn't worry about revealing to him what a bad terrible possessive jealous girlfriend I am or whatever rot. I'd done the job for you.
[And indeed, the whole thread is neatly packaged up and psychic-mail sent to 4, 8, 9, and 10.]
Re: B.
[Rose opens her mouth, about to shout, about to interrupt!]
[This was EXACTLY what she told Ashildr she was scared of. What she feared and hated! And it seizes her throat right up, so no words come out.]
[Her eyes are hard.]
[Extremely hard.]
[And it's a good note of Rose's own levels of composure that she doesn't do anything, doesn't react much. In fact, her voice is almost emotionless, just quiet and very sad.]
Stay away from him.
I was wrong. I don't just mean 9 anymore. I mean you're toxic. I thought Lady Me was, but I was definitely wrong about that. Compared to you? She's just a pill. Bitter, side effects, but at least with some power for good.
You? [Shakes her head.] I'm sure you'll hurt him if you think it's for his own good. And I can't ever trust that. [And Rose... can't. It's the line she will never cross. She agonized over taking his memories from him knowing it was to make him happier. River was like a surgeon. Ready to cut away at him like he was some diamond in the rough. Rose liked the rough, took him as he was. She did not like River.]
[The evil the Doctor hated the most. An arrogant TimeLord would rather everything was static than allow for free will and freedom and making mistakes and getting messy, and learning and evolving. A TimeLord who would decide life and death because he was so sure of his own power to be right.]
[Rose was terrified of that. Terrified. But she wasn't willing to let this woman who thought she knew what was best for him decide that. If anything, it was too close to her worst fears. Hell no. Did River even understand the joy of adventures? Or WHY it was important to hold his hand? Had she she ever made all of him laugh? Any of him? Reminded him how to dance, how to laugh?]
[Rose all but has a panic attack, thinking about how River might react if she saw Ten the way he got without Rose to keep him steady. Would River Song be willing to kill Ten to make him regenerate just so he'd be the way she thought he should? Or how much pain until he stopped what she felt he must?!]
I know the days he stopped calling himself the Doctor, and the days 8 has yet to come. Just stay away from all of him. If you really love him, if you really want what's good for him, don't go near him. He's actually happy here, do you understand? Let him come to you, make him want to come to you for all I care, but don't reach out to him, don't do anything that hurts him. Or I swear to you, you'll wish you had never met me. I won't even let you beg for mercy, I'm not even that nice. Just stay away from him for his own good.
[For the first time, Rose REALLY TRULY WISHES that 10 is right, that Lady Me is ABSOLUTELY from an alternate universe. That the Doctor would never do this to himself, even though ROSE KNOWS OTHERWISE. What was the point? What was the point of saving him if he's going to let himself always be tortured like this? Did she even really save him at all?]
[Little moments. It's about the joy in the meanwhile, before everything. And between it.]
If you really want to protect him, do that. And start with protecting him from yourself.
Oh.
And just so you know. [She taps the side of her head with two fingers.] I've already sent all of this to him. All of him. So you needn't worry about revealing to him what a bad terrible possessive jealous girlfriend I am or whatever rot. I'd done the job for you.
[And indeed, the whole thread is neatly packaged up and psychic-mail sent to 4, 8, 9, and 10.]