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gotosleep_idiot2017-04-07 12:18 am
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April Test Drive Meme
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Re: B.
The fact of the matter was, the doctor Rose was describing was a very, very far cry from what he would become and she rather doubted this girl was really...truly up to the task of being the equal partner he would eventually need his wife to be. ]
You never asked when was the first time he met me, only when I met him. There's a marked difference when it comes to my time with the doctor. There is much, much more to our relationship than you could ever fathom.
[River couldn't help it.But, if Rose really... truly wanted to compare notes, then so be it.]
I have stars and worlds burn because they love that man when he refused to ask for help. I took it upon myself to show him just how much he was loved and by no one more than me.
[She nearly destroyed time itself to prove that point. Selfish? Probably, but, it worked.]
You may have seen the horrors, but, have you seen the good? He may leave the dead in his wake, but, think about the lives he saves. There are worlds out there where 'Doctor' means great warrior because of that man and all he focuses on are the dead, not the living.
He is frustrating and amazing, an yes he told me his name because I am the one person in the universe... in the multiverse that he will come to trust with his darkest secrets and the only person who truly could. There is nothing he can do that I can't do.
[In a way, she could thank the silence for that.]
You may think I don't know your depths Rose Tylers, but, you don't know mine. I do more than keep his secrets from him or for him.
I have seen that man escape death more times than I can count and if that's not enough, I would gladly die to save that man and I'm rather sure that one day, I will so he can have all the adventures we are meant to have.
You think that helping him through the grief of loosing Gallifrey is hard? Just you wait. There are worst days to come for him and I will be there for them all. There will be days when the mere mention of his name will make armies run and where he will be the thing that the evil in the universe will fear the most.
They will fear him enough to make a weapon to bring him down, one that will succeed and I will be there in those darkest days to do exactly what he needs or can't do himself.
Loving him is more than just staying. More than merely running with him more than coming back to him when he thinks he's lost you. It's reminding him that the bad comes with the good and he shouldn't focus on the bad but focus on the good. On the people who need him to be him.
To be The Doctor and everything that entails. Ask him, why did he take that name? He could have any name in the universe but he chose that name. Why?
Because that is who he is and there are many, many times he needs to be reminded of that. Holding his hand and coddling him in his grief doesn't do that. He needs reminders, not sympathy. No some woman who loves him because he's 'broken'.
The Doctor isn't broken, Rose. He's a man whether he wishes to admit it or not. A frustrating, handsome, annoying, mad man with a box who will save lives and always be on the run to the next big adventure.
Re: B.
[Rose opens her mouth, about to shout, about to interrupt!]
[This was EXACTLY what she told Ashildr she was scared of. What she feared and hated! And it seizes her throat right up, so no words come out.]
[Her eyes are hard.]
[Extremely hard.]
[And it's a good note of Rose's own levels of composure that she doesn't do anything, doesn't react much. In fact, her voice is almost emotionless, just quiet and very sad.]
Stay away from him.
I was wrong. I don't just mean 9 anymore. I mean you're toxic. I thought Lady Me was, but I was definitely wrong about that. Compared to you? She's just a pill. Bitter, side effects, but at least with some power for good.
You? [Shakes her head.] I'm sure you'll hurt him if you think it's for his own good. And I can't ever trust that. [And Rose... can't. It's the line she will never cross. She agonized over taking his memories from him knowing it was to make him happier. River was like a surgeon. Ready to cut away at him like he was some diamond in the rough. Rose liked the rough, took him as he was. She did not like River.]
[The evil the Doctor hated the most. An arrogant TimeLord would rather everything was static than allow for free will and freedom and making mistakes and getting messy, and learning and evolving. A TimeLord who would decide life and death because he was so sure of his own power to be right.]
[Rose was terrified of that. Terrified. But she wasn't willing to let this woman who thought she knew what was best for him decide that. If anything, it was too close to her worst fears. Hell no. Did River even understand the joy of adventures? Or WHY it was important to hold his hand? Had she she ever made all of him laugh? Any of him? Reminded him how to dance, how to laugh?]
[Rose all but has a panic attack, thinking about how River might react if she saw Ten the way he got without Rose to keep him steady. Would River Song be willing to kill Ten to make him regenerate just so he'd be the way she thought he should? Or how much pain until he stopped what she felt he must?!]
I know the days he stopped calling himself the Doctor, and the days 8 has yet to come. Just stay away from all of him. If you really love him, if you really want what's good for him, don't go near him. He's actually happy here, do you understand? Let him come to you, make him want to come to you for all I care, but don't reach out to him, don't do anything that hurts him. Or I swear to you, you'll wish you had never met me. I won't even let you beg for mercy, I'm not even that nice. Just stay away from him for his own good.
[For the first time, Rose REALLY TRULY WISHES that 10 is right, that Lady Me is ABSOLUTELY from an alternate universe. That the Doctor would never do this to himself, even though ROSE KNOWS OTHERWISE. What was the point? What was the point of saving him if he's going to let himself always be tortured like this? Did she even really save him at all?]
[Little moments. It's about the joy in the meanwhile, before everything. And between it.]
If you really want to protect him, do that. And start with protecting him from yourself.
Oh.
And just so you know. [She taps the side of her head with two fingers.] I've already sent all of this to him. All of him. So you needn't worry about revealing to him what a bad terrible possessive jealous girlfriend I am or whatever rot. I'd done the job for you.
[And indeed, the whole thread is neatly packaged up and psychic-mail sent to 4, 8, 9, and 10.]
Re: B.
He would approach her. If any of his younger selves had any sense, any at all. ]
Is that so? Then you can send him this. If I'm so toxic, have him ask himself why the TARDIS would love me like her own. Would the TARDIS ever let anyone meant to harm him in her doors time and time again and even teach them how to pilot her?
Or let them fix her when he can't. I don't have to force my way into the heart of the TARDIS, Rose. She welcomes me.
[Then River smirked.]
It's probably a good thing you let them know I was here actually. Thank you for doing that part for me.
Re: B.
[If Rose could just bring herself to be a little saltier she'd tell River to sod off, but she refuses to believe that the TARDIS trusts River. She just doesn't believe it at all.]
Re: B.
[River was still very, very confidant. If he really heard what she had to say, even if he feared some of it...he would still be curious. River knew how to be patient with him and she knew that all she had to do was wait.
And, perhaps the future versions of him would show up and then Rose would be in for quite a shock.]